What happens when you feel like you have been dragged through rocks... big rocks.. with jagged edges.... like your head is about to explode, your nose is on fire, raw and yet you still have to blow it or it will drip down the front of you, you are so dizzy you can't see straight in front of you - even putting on glasses doesn't straighten the room out..... your stomach feels like it is upside down, and your boob.. itches.... oh and top it all off with the fact that you are constipated.....
You go to bed.... you climb into your unmade disheveled pile of covers... draw your 6 pillow as close as you can and turn on the tv..... fill your night table with tissues, Vicks, lypsol, Aleve and 3 bottles of water.... pull those covers up as high as you can and lay there... all you have to do is breathe.... and flip the channel....
That was my day yesterday..... they (not quite sure who they are) that this is allowed.... that my body is crying for it... rest.. rest and rest somemore... well look here.. this is what happens when I rest.... I get sick!!!!!!!!!!!! rest = sick in my world.... it's when you sit still that the bugs get you.... If you keep going, keep on fighting - those nasty bugs can get you.... they get tired of chasing you, give up and move onto some other soul that sits still..... this has been my strategy and I let my guard down....
Is there a good time ever to get a cold.... NOPE!!! just a minute here...... I have never believed that til now... typically getting a cold is worse then surgery to me... but.... gotta tell ya... if there ever was a time... maybe this is it...... maybe they (when I figure out who they are I will tell you) are right here... maybe this is the best time... maybe God has this planned for me... make me so weak I can't even bath.. for fear of falling.... tell you what... he didnt take away my appetite... I still want cupcakes..... just one though not 12......
Today.... I woke up feeling better somehow... still crappy but better... maybe it's time to just suck it up, put on my big girl granny panties and get going.... I should have a shower today.. not sure I am allowed... but feeling like the bath just isnt cutting it... dont like that dry shampoo... stinks..... and just tired of hanging around... not sure what I think I can do... but know this... this is just not workin for me....
Maybe I will do the questions in Oprah mag this month and try and figure out just what I want to do with my life from tomorrow on... maybe I will boss Ossie around.. laundry needs doing.... ahhh maybe I will just chill again, climb back into my bed and watch the shopping channel..... ya that's the ticket..... shopping therapy....
Read mom's inspirational quote today.. every day I pick one out of the box she gave me.. how cool is that... I am going to pay this forward for sure.. awesome gift... today's quote is so for me... reaction... hmmm reaction to boredom....
Tomorrow is a new day.... I will be better tomorrow... right????? well??????
I really like your mom's quote, you are an inspiration to me & other women..you have such a possitive attitude about things,life throws us curves, it is our choice how we deal with it, although I didn't think like that back in 1974 when I lost a child, but I have learned from that experience & also had 2 healthy children after Scott. Take care.
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