23 years ago today I was in labour for 11:45 hours having my baby boy... my bouncing 8lb 8.8 oz boy... born with his hair sticking straight up with a good set of lungs..... Justin who is almost 6 years older... (who didn't really like this screaming bundle we were bringing home) asked me in the hospital "Mommy do we really need to bring that home?"
Naming him Zachary Evan Johnathon James but Justin called him Spike - and it stuck for a few years... and so did his hair... he was a cute little baby and never slept... until he was 10 months old, it was hell.... and we knew at that point that this boy was going to have a mind of his own.... More then that, he proved us right and went beyond...
My boy has a personality, he has confidence and loves to have fun.... he wants to experience everything and live his life the way he wants... I am glad... however being a mother.... sometimes this trait drives me nuts....
What took me 22 years to figure out.... I can't control these boys not anymore.. where does the years go... I was thinking of memories last night that seem like yesterday when they were young and I was yelling at them to go to sleep.... of them in our pool..... of Zak riding his bike up and down the driveway..... of Justin playing hockey... and I yearned for a simpler time when my boys were my babies.... and I got sad....
With Justin getting married this year... maybe in a few years I will have new babies to spoil... looking forward to it... but for now... time marches on and so do my babies...
It made me realize that we have to enjoy the moments in our lives, when the kids are driving us nuts, the puppy is peeing in the house, your hubby sings at the top of his lungs - badly... and at night when they are in bed, and the house is quiet..... remember the day.... don't wish it away... don't wish for a time when they are 28 and 23.... it will come... way too soon... and you will look back and forget some of those amazing moments....
Another reason why we should be fully in every single moment of our lives.... yes plan for tomorrow - but only for a minute, because today is only here for a minute and tomorrow will be here before you know it....
Enjoy...............
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