Ok now I am scared... today I am scared.. scared of my appt next Wednesday even though I know the doc is going to say "all done... all good (oh there it is again) you can go about your life and we will see you for a mamo in 3 months...." let's just keep an eye on it.... but you are good... you are done and you have nothing further to worry about....
Ok so what happens on Thursday.... T&E is doing fine without me, POWE has gone on without me and I feel like I have been retreating for so long that I have nothing to do.... nothing to be on Thursday and I dont even know who I will be... should I wear a skirt.. maybe turn a new leaf and wear a skirt..... boots for sure.... ya... high heels.. hello... get off my butt and get going... and do what???????????????
Not sure I have done such a great job to begin with and it appears that everything is good without me... so do I even belong doing what I was doing.... not so sure... I want to open my centre... ya that's for sure... I need a miracle... I need money to do that.... so I have to get my butt in gear....
My big question to myself is "what are you refusing to put down to go through the door...." man I do that.. I carry groceries to the door and dont put them down because I am superwoman..... remember Dark Invader fighter... I can carry them and open the door too... ya and then drop the eggs... I take that risk.... why... when I could put them down and walk through with ease....
Really its the paradymes I carry... the thought processes that my ego believes to be true.... that which I need to carry in order to be whole... in order to be who I am .... that is what it is... its the stuff that fills up my life now that really is not necessary for me to be who I am, to be whole and to go through the next open door of opportunity... it's me that stops myself always always.....
This is what is playing on my mind today.... I need some silence to write.... I have my housekeepers here chattering away around me... which of course is good cause Ossie is a terrible housekeeper.. and I need it clean around me and no clutter to feel good.... oh here is another one of those......
I have the dog groomer coming at 12:30 to take care of the scruffy muffin.. isnt it an amazing time we live in when they come to you to take care of the puppy.... gotta love it...
Today, I have loads to think about.... My Bonnie - my daughter in law to be is coming tomorrow for the weekend.. we are going to do wedding things... big wedding coming in September you know.... and maybe go to Homesense... I need to redo the guest room with more leopard.... and I might even venture to the office tomorrow for the Stiletto's committee meeting.... only for an hour....
So, I am gonna cry when I feel like it today, let the tears stain my cheeks.... and laugh like hell when it comes.... keep on walking funny cause these bloody hemmoroids are still here.. ouch like hell.... and just be what I need to be today... life is all good... Ya Julia I know you hate it when I say that right now... but what else can I say.....
#327 Pink and beige blouse... I liked it in the store.. wore it once with brown.. it was not Tina at all....
#326
Powder blue is such a nice colour... what I loved about this blouse is the sleeves.. you can roll them back and make a cuff outside your jacket.. such a clean polished look....
#325, 324, 323, 322
Skirts... love these... dark green, navy and 2 black skirts all down to the ankle.. love the style of these... with tights and boots.. sexy..... my problem with them... my butt is too big for them.....
#321 off white is a great colour for all year round.. crepe material... again sleeves you can cuff back.. clean and crisp...
Have you got any shoes to donate to the Stilettos event... we are accepting them now... bring them to the POWE office in Whitby... looking forward to it!!!
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