Starting fresh today with my Clearing the Clutter Challenge 2011. I made a commitment to myself that I would do 1 item a day for the entire 365 days in 2011... well I forgot the cruise was in there so I have some catching up to do..I also didn't count on a big fat surgery to get in the way.... Last night I went to bed.... thinking of going to the funeral home today... to celebrate my sister in laws life... she was one of the toughest, strongest women I knew... when the going got tough and it did for her she just fought back harder and was stronger for it... like my mother in law (who wore Chanel #5...) she was wise and just knew the answers to things... why... because that woman had been through so much in her 59 years... wow many would crack under the pressure.. not Eva she just learned, kept positive and kept going...
2 weeks ago she read my blog, found out what was going on with the dark invader and me and read the one I wrote talking about her mother and she sent me a lovely note... to say stay strong and giving me positive advice and to enjoy my Chanel #5.... agreeing with me about missing her mother... then bang... she is gone too...... wow... one just never knows... this has strengthened my conviction to just live every single day and enjoy the moment....
Today, I woke up scared to death about Tuesday.. ok this is real isnt it... ok I am gonna cancel this freakin surgery cause this is not real..... this is not happening to me... up to now I have been going through the motions and not really thinking this is really happening... today it hit me... my stomach dropped and I think I will speak to the surgeon tomorrow - maybe they dont really need to do this surgery.. maybe I am making this up... maybe it's just not real...
So, as per usual Julia and I are texting back and forth... I tell her about being afraid and there she is right there with just the right thing to say... I keep busy unpacking and cooking breakfast for my kids who are here cause we are going to the funeral home this afternoon..... but this knot in my gut just wont go away...
Julia, my friend... says relax and stay busy.... she changes the subject like she can do so that I think about something else.... she is coming to the hosp with Ossie and I and will be there in recovery with me.... how great is that.. how blessed am I..
When we were away, Julia and I bought matching pink saphire bracelets... you should hear this story... $900 bracelets and I got the guy down to $160 each... I can negotiate eh.... lol..... and we bought a pink ring as well... matching ones... our PINK POWER rings.... Julia is going to put these back on my in recovery.... how awesome is that..... that is out connection...
This pic includes 4 items... gorgeous burgundy silk scarf, purse and shoes... sunglasses... just cheapies but cute with the entire set... (the missing pieces are the gloves.... I tried them on today and like them Julia....) I look horrid - just horrid in burgundy and Julia, well she looks amazing!! simply gorgeous in burgundy.... I bought all these lovelies in London, England and you guessed it wore them once.... cause I look horrid.. except the gloves.... hmmm Julia not sure I am ready to give up those lovelies yet.... they go up the arm and are far enough from my face you know... I will think about it....
Items #341- 338
These lovelies are for my lovely friend Julia who I am so blessed to have been reunited with only 7 years ago.... thank you doll for all that you are and all you do for me...... I love you much xoxox
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