I tried and it worked sometimes, a few minutes here and there... through the festivities.... I kept busy cooking, cleaning, enjoying every single moment with my boys and my soon to be daughter in law... I tried to forget that there is this dark invader in the room with us...
Funny thing though, I tried to acknowledge the feelings as they cropped up as well.. as part of my be in every moment theme right now, I want to experience it all and remember it..
Ossie and I enjoyed festivities on Christmas Eve at a friends home which was awesome. All the while I in the back of my mind I thought how these people don't have a clue that there is a dark invader in the room with us...
Christmas day, the kids say nothing, they know I am having surgery, they know there is a lump.... they say nothing... I say once "when I have the surgery" and we open gifts, I keep busy and all is well... is it???????????????
Tina, Ossie's sister who lives in England tells me she is coming in February... this is good... during the time I have the surgery she will be here... that makes me feel better....
We talk wedding... wedding.... my son's wedding... 2011.... can't wait... don't want to wish it by but..... need to get this sorted... no I dont know the colour of the dress I want to wear yet... how can I????
Weight Watchers this week.. this is good... going to put together my taxes for the accountant today.. laundry.... take Bonnie's jacket back to exchange it.. actually thinking I will get Ossie to get the suitcases out... we have less then 3 weeks til we leave for our cruise... so much to do..... Julia & Luc's cottage for New Years Eve... girls go on Thursday... that is nice..... oh and inbetween all that - Doctors appointments for pre-op physical, blood work, hospital pre-op.... oh yes dont forget the dark invader is coming with us... but... I am having surgery 3 days after we return... so in reality I should count down the days this I get him removed instead of the cruise????? hmmmmmmmm which do I look forward to more???
So today, I think... Oh ya here I go thinking again... I think I will stay as busy as I can... that's the ticket....
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