Who do you trust????

Family day..... please..... how many people actually spend today with their family?? This is the most ridiculous holiday ever... an excuse for a day off.... votes, political games... that is all this day is... and we.. well not me..... fell into it... putty in their hands.... laughing at the stupid Canadians who think this is a great thing.... we got them!

Now that I have ranted... whew... glad that's off my chest.....

Ossie says the funniest things sometimes..... really they are just goofy...last night I mentioned how cold I felt and he agreed and said he was cold all night but couldn't put socks on... I fell right into it... He can't do that he says to me indignantly.... because..... (it's too funny to even write) if he wears his socks to bed he has nightmares.... lol!!!

People are hilarious with all their little habits and idiosyncrasies. I have to fold my towels a certain way so each one lays in the closet the same, so you pull them out by the folded end and leave the rest neat and tidy.. Ossie would just throw them all in there or leave them in the laundry basket...or why wash them... it's just water right???? That's it for me - other then that I am pretty perfect.... oh did I mention my perfectionist disorder... oh ya forgot about that one.....

So, one might think I am crazy but since Wednesday I have this pathology report in my hot little hands but something just kept pulling me to it.. thinking something is weird... hmmm ok I have to dissect this from top to bottom so I spent 4 hours yesterday doing this... you know these reports are spoken in tongues......what I learned was interesting and scary all at the same time... I had a gut feeling I was not finished with all this stuff and after discovering for myself what the path report all means... I am convinced I need to follow up with a second opinion...

Our own intuition has to come into it somewhere right?????? Add to that 3 months of this..... add to that the information I am now armed with.... and I am at an extreme risk for breast cancer anyway... and it's time to take my health seriously..... education and prevention are my best friends right now.... what to do next.... second opinion.... Hamilton breast clinic... here I come.... Mississauga thermography clinic... here I come...

The breakdown of the report took some time as I pieced together the $10 words they used to describe the results... In a nutshell I have Proliferative Fibrocystic changes with ductal hyperplasia which translated means rapid growing & increasing overgrowth of cells..

Now fibrocystic breast disease is now being noted as changes... which translated means lumpy boobs... ok but when hyperplasia is added to that... this is an increased risk.... it is an overgrowth of cells... can have some genetic errors as the cells have began to accumulate and no longer respond normally to the signals that control cell growth and division.... exposure to estrogen & progesterone add to this..

Oh yes, I did HRT in 99 after they took my final ovary that had shrivelled up to nothing, removed the massive amounts of endometriosis for just short of 5 years and again these past 2 years with a combo bio-identicals.... (you know the hormones Suzanne Sommers toots) ya I was on them too..... all of this plus stress (ummm can you say stress bunny Tina - who's receptors, internal mechanisms that relate to stress are so tired and worn out that she doesn't even know when she is stressed out), not so great diet..(that is changing), wine... ya ya...(but not every day come on!) lack of exercise.. hmmm did I mention how much I had doing that, boring too boring....... who would rather work then do almost anything else.... and has spent the last 8 years working alot... did I mention that it really was my life... work first then more work and if there is any time left over lets push and push and stress right out to get to play for a minute.... sleep.. oh lack of sleep you mean... ya... and taking melatonin every single night just to catch a couple of hours... uninterrupted you have to be kidding... that does not happen for me ever......among some other lifestyle stuff that needs to be changed......

All of this plus other things I can't change such as genes... being from Eastern European decent... uh huh.. true... all means that I am at a high risk of these fast changing cells mutating and I need to pay attention now.... no more sailing through on a lick and a promise (my mom's phrase)...

I found some great sites that might be of interest to you as you too take care of yourself... I believe that we have to take our health seriously.. if nothing else this entire last 3 months has taught me that our health is nothing to be taken for granted and indeed is our responsibility... we are in charge not the doctors... trusting them for certain things is ok.. but they are human too and what is the biggest human factor... mistakes... we make mistakes... yes it's true...

I am going for a second opinion... as it is my right and I believe that I have been given this opportunity to do some very important work here on earth...

• first and foremost... take very good care of myself, make my health and wellness my life's main priority... to not take it for granted and to give thanks every day for it...
• to lead by example... to be the change I need to see in our world for other women... to share, inspire and educate women by how I live my life, by writing, by speaking and sharing ideas to help them live a better life
• to bring awareness to the prevention of breast cancer, to stop the immunity.... stop the complacency.. to be a big, noisy voice that people stand up and pay attention to... to make sure that money is raised for prevention, for comfort and for care not just research... for smaller charities making a difference.... like Renewed Strength and Heather Griffith Breast Assessment Centre that all women and some men can use....
• to create the Full Life Care & Wellness Centre where caregivers, patients and seniors can go for info, for support, for health and wellness advice and activities.... for education and inspiration.... to continue our work with T&E for our clients.....
• to simplify my life, clear the clutter and challenge myself and others keep it simple, uncluttered and uncomplicated.....
• to be the best possible Tina, me, princess pissy, that I can be...

Tall order for today.... big, maybe... however this is doable.. much more so then the last 8 years... my list is shorter today... much shorter... and one I believe I can manage to achieve....

The site I wanted to share with you......

http://www.healthcorner.org/category.php?cid=14

Getting started right away.. going to Julia's for tea so we can get our butts back on the Weight Watchers program... doing it with a buddy is always better...